Friday, July 31, 2009

Hey, Lookit Me! Two Days In A Row!

OK, yesterday I was a bit melancholy. I admit it. That's the first step, right?

When we're in a funk, there comes a point when you have to practically will your way out of it. Some people are gifted at that kind of thing. Me, it takes me a while. I don't know why that is. I don't know if one way is right and the other wrong. But whatever it is, I think I'm at the place now where I can accept the task of willing my way out of the funk.

Nothing changed today. In some ways, today was harder than yesterday. Whatever. The fact is, it's time to move forward. Coincidentally, tomorrow is the beginning of a new month. For whatever reason, if I'm going to start something new, I like to start at the beginning of something. A week, a month, a year or whatever. I guess it's just easy to remember "August 1st" than July23rd or something. But I specifically said it was coincidental that tomorrow is August 1st. It's not like I've been wallowing in things just because it wasn't fitting neatly on the calendar.

So here I am...a few hours short of August 1st. Realistically, nothing special is going to happen tomorrow or the next day to change anything. Further, I didn't even wait for August 1st. I guess I just look at it and say, "OK, tomorrow is the beginning of a new month, and I'm going to make it better than last month!"

So God, I know you're reading this. It's You and me. I've kind of slipped into relying on myself lately, and that pretty much brought about the typical disastrous results. So I'm getting out of the pilot's seat, and giving it back to You. Thanks for being patient with me. I'll go back to my seat, relax, and enjoy the journey.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

When Is Enough Enough?

Several times in the course of one's life, we're confronted with moments when we must choose how we're going to let what's happened to us affect us. I've been here before, and I'm here again. Life has not been easy for me lately. OK, I don't really remember when it was ever easy. I see so many comments from friends on Facebook who are "lovin' life", and I just miss being one of those people who feels that way.

I'm probably quite a distance from being there, but maybe...just maybe, this post is a baby step.

There have been a number of times in my life when I've felt less than adequate. Even when I think I'm doing a good job, there's someone who I have let in that place in my life, which I typically keep padlocked and dead bolted, who informs me that really...nah, I'm not really all that. These moments have consistently been a sucker punch to my spirit and confidence.

So here I am again, doing my best to dust myself off and get back in the game. I try to remind myself that I am "fearfully and wonderfully made", and I'm the way God made me. Then there are times when I really feel like I must have made some pretty damaging modifications to what He made.

So anyway, that's where I am today. It's been some time since I've written anything, and I have no idea when I'll write again. Why I'm putting this on the interweb is anyone's guess at this point.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Last Look at Celebrate America 2009

Celebrate America in Rocklin is now history. I captured a few of the moments before, during and after the show on video, and I want to share them with you here. We had nearly 10,000 people at Twin Oaks Park in Rocklin, and I really believe every single one had a good time. There were lots of smiles, lots of love poured out on our troops, both current and past, and a little something for people of all ages and backgrounds.

If you weren't able to attend, it looks good that we'll be back in 2010. If you were able to attend, I hope you had a great time! I'd love to hear your comments!

If you haven't checked out the videos I made during production week, they're posted on my YouTube page,